Love Dare- Day 8 AND 9

Friday( Day 8)

Today’s Love Dare is to become your spouse’s biggest fan and reject any thoughts of jealousy. Take yesterday’s list with the negative attributes and burn it. Share with your spouse how glad you are about a recent success he has enjoyed.

This wasn't to impressive. I called him on the way to work and got his voicemail. I told him how proud I was of him and all that he had done at his job. I told him I was thankful for him being such a hard worker. I still, 3 days later, haven't heard a response back to this. He probably thought I was smoking crack. LOL


So, this was the second weekend that it was almost impossible to write.

After Friday night I was going to give up. I had my mind made up that this marriage wasn't going to work and I was NOT going to keep going. Saturday morning rolled around and we got into a massive fight. The fight lead to J.R. telling me to file the papers I started and then he will move out. Oh boy was it big.

After we had all cooled off, put the kids down for a nap, we laid in bed. That's it. We laid there and talked clam. We talked for about an hour. He cried. I would put my hand on his back. Stroke his hair. Anything to give him some comfort. He does not in any way want to be split up from his family, but at times thinks it would be the best for us.

I cried also. I cried because he was crying. I cried because the fear of making a bad choice. I cried because I'm pissed. I cried because it was going to be hard.

I'm pissed that we have been married 7  years. We have had problems the entire 7 years and both of us are to damn lazy to get help or work on it.

If you noticed, I am starting out these dares different. Giving you a long back story on the day.

During the time in bed I told him that I was hurt that he didn't notice a change in me the last few days. I told him about the love dare and everything started clicking. He said he noticed I had been acting really strange and that he liked it but it was so random. We laughed over it.

I don't think I did a dare on Saturday. Ooops.

Here is Sundays.

Love Dare Day 9-

Think of a specific way you'd like to greet your spouse today. Do it with enthusiasm and a smile. Then determine to change your greeting to reflect love for them.

I should mention that after our long talk in bed on Saturday we had a GREAT Sunday. I'm talking really nice. For the first time in..... let me think...well a LOOONG time we just enjoyed each other and being a family. We never once fought. We never once said an ill word to each other.

He left to go to Kohl's during nap time. Before he got home I called him and asked if he wanted me to make him lunch and have it ready before he got home. He told me no. I returned to resting since it was nap time. I hear the keys in the door and I get up off the couch and meet him in the kitchen. I said, "hi" and put my hands on his hips and kissed him on the cheek.

Instantly I got a big ole Kool Aid smile on my face and I whipped around so he couldn't see. I tried being cool about it and not burst out in giggles. He stood there like he had seen an alien. He said, "wow....oh that must be the book." and I almost fell to the floor in tears from laughing so hard.

This is a really long post, and I apologize. But I will wrap it up by saying that I am incredibly skeptical. I have been doing this with him for years. We get along, we make promises, we set goals, we cry, we beg for forgiveness then it all gets blown to hell and I get let down.

I have the papers now. They are ready to go and ready to be filed. But I will still wait until this is over. Still waiting on the miracle to happen. To me, if our marriage is savable, it would truly be a miracle.

Days 8 and 9 down. 31 to go.