Pointless Ramblings

Iam exhausted. I cant keep my eyes open. Guess I should go to bed.
Not.
I have to study. It is incredibly important.
Study what?
The new menu at Skye.
The test is in the morning.
Dont pass..dont get shifts.
Oh the pressure.
Worlds most HORRIBLE test taker.
I cant learn by reading.
I have to learn by seeing.
Hands on.
Im also a procrastinator.
Hence sitting here typing stupid stuff when I need to be studying.
I can study for hours and it wont make a difference.
I will bomb the test tomorrow.
Moving on...
The new menu. I am SOO overjoyed about this.
If you have never been you really need to come check this place out
and enjoy the wonderful food, cocktails and live entertainment.
I am beyond tired.
As I already said.
Surprisingly though not from work.
I have had 3 nights off in a row.
Someone get me back to work ASAP
Im going crazy at home.
I tried making dinner tonight.
I called my Grandma to tell her not to make dinner.
I was going to cook for her and send it with my Grandpa when he left our house.
This is big for me. Not only do I rarely cook
but I RARELY make something new.
Or from scratch.
A picture had been floating up on Pinterest today
and I couldn't wait to make it.
When putting in the flour it kind of dumped out.
Crap.
Guess I will just add more chicken broth and butter.
Forgot the sour cream.
Nasty.
I mean, barley edible.
It looked amazing. Super yummy aromas filled my house.
I sent it off with my Grandpa accompanied with a salad.
Called my Grandma to warn her it might taste like flour.
Put mine in the oven.
Sat down with boys to eat and almost threw up.
Called my Grandma to apologize.
She told me it was interesting.
Another interesting to-me and not-to-you Im sure kinda thing..
But its my blog.
My words.
Stop reading if you don't care.
Kidding.
Its the sleep deprivation talking.
Jax is in love.
Yup. My 21/2 year old is in love with Jenna and he has told me about 15 times today.
Jenna is blonde, 6 years old, and lives 3 doors down.
When asking my 1 1/2 year old what his name is (because Im sure he is confused)
He answered RE.
I said is your name Reid?
"YES"
I said, Is your name Josiah
he said "NO"
So there it is I guess he prefers Reid to Josiah.
Vow Renewal planning has been fun this week. We have gotten a lot of things decided.
Besides the date. It has changed 3 times.
No wonder why we eloped in the first place.
Its hard to work with a bazillion peoples schedule!
Not to mention I have a really weird date/number obsession.
It has to be all evens, or meaningful numbers, or in a certain order.
Aiden was born on 6/27/06. I wish it was the 26th.
Jax was born on 1/23 LOVE THAT!
Reid was born on 4/1 APRIL FOOLS. LOVE THAT.
So, Im thinking 7/21/12 Cause it has to be in July. With only 4 Saturdays that is the best.
Ok, enough talking about pointless things.
The inevetible has to happen and it has to  happen before I fall asleep
I have to study.
Study for a test I know Im gonna fail.
UGGGH.
Oh yeah, next Saturday there is a barn sale I have been waiting a year to go to this.
Im just sad Im so broke.
Whatever..it will still be fun.
Goodnight everyone.


Restaurants

Damn you Pinterest

The first time I heard about "pinning" was from my best friend, Alison. She updated her status that she had been "pinning" all night. What the heck was she doing? Some kinda cult thing? Maybe something in the bedroom? Who knows.

She told me all about it. I was confused and lost. In fact for the past 3 months I have had it I have been confused and lost. Until this week and BAM it  hit me how wonderful and inspirational this place is. It's like a wonderland for creative minds.

Uggh, creative minds. What I strive to have. To be able to sew and paint, and build and glue.

All these boards and pins have turned me into a completely obsessed "wanna be" crafter (is that even a word? I want to re-decorate my home. For example..Grey and YELLOW. YELLOW people..I have never once wanted my house to be YELLOW!

And then there is bunting flags and the fact that I am zoned in on buying a sewing machine just so I can make these

And I want to buy (again) a cricut so I can make pretty wooden signs with cute sayings

Im crazy. I cant get enough. Im wondering if my boys will notice me turning their playroom into a craft room..it would be SOOO perfect! I think I want to start a club. A meeting once a week where we just MAKE things. Oh can you imagine the fun! (totally being for real!!)

So in the words of  Pinterest....

HAPPY PINNING!!!!

Remember Me....

October has been an emotionally draining month.

So many tragedies have happened.

To Friends and friends of friends.

Moms forced to bury their babies.
People being diagnosed with disease.

Friends Grandparents passing away.

My heart aches.

My heart fills with pain for all my friends hurting.

I am encouraged by the bravery of each of them.

On the flip side it has gotten me to think a lot.

Think how blessed I am. How much I have.

Think about the person I want to be and

the person I want to be remembered as.

Which is nowhere close

to how I would be remembered if I passed

away right at this very second.

I worked a event at Skye last month.

It was the reception after a funeral.

Pictures of this old man

and all his accomplishments

where everywhere.

I could hear friends and family sit at

their tables telling familiar stories of this man.

Happy stories.

That's what I want.

That day I decided I needed to make changes

in my life.

I need to clean up my dirty mouth.

Stop looking to others for approval and acceptance.

Purify my heart was my prayer.

I want a pure heart.
I want love.

I want honesty.

I want happiness.

I want to be fulfilled.

Not by the things of this world.

I want to live simply.

I want to love and be loved.

I want to give the shirt off my back to others.

I want to make the world a better place.

I want to make a difference.

I am ready to let go all my anger, bitterness and hatred

that has harbored my heart for 3 years.

I am ready to let go and let God.

I want to be the most hands on mother.

I want patience, kindness, and love.

I want to be an encouragement to my friends.

I want compassion and wisdom.

I want to be the best WIFE I can be.

I want to prefer him, die to myself, Patience, love, wisdom, forgiveness, gentleness

and most importantly I want to be a child of God again.

I want to love Jesus. I want my light to shine.

I want to make a difference.



Brothers

This was the the way Jax would watch his little brother for the first few weeks he was brought home from the hospital. A little lot apprehensive, showing signs of jealousy and anger. You see, Jax was barley 14 months old, just started walking, just gave up the bottle, and didn't even have more than 3 words in his vocabulary. He was STILL a baby when we brought home yet another little boy to join our family. I cant imagine all the things that were going through his little mind.

Actually I probably can imagine. You see, shortly after this picture was taken we took the newest baby out of the car seat and Jax slapped him in his head. That's how he felt. "Listen kid, I don't know who you think you are but you are NOT taking my place. IAM the baby"

Over the next few weeks and months Jax warmed up to Reid.

Now, 18 months later, they are the best of friends. 2 peas in a pod. Peanut butter and Jelly. At almost the same size (just a few pounds and a few inches difference) they are more like twins. Jax is so protective over his brother and is always telling him to tag along and play. Don't get me wrong, they can fight with the best of them. Reid is so spoiled and all he has to do is let out a high pitched scream and Jax gives into him. Will hand over his most prized toy just to make his brother happy.

It does my heart good to look over at the table and see this sort of thing, Jax helping his brother eat even though he is more than capable of feeding himself.

Sometimes I let my mind wander to the boys they will be in high school. One a senior, the other a junior. I pray they will be the best of friends, play sports together, do theater, be in a band. Whatever their hearts desire is. I can imagine Reid telling Jax how much he likes the same girl and Jax saying, "you can go for her Reid"

But that is a long way away.

For now, I am enjoying watching these beautiful boys grow up together and share this special bond.

All boys. I have 3 boys. Yes, sometimes I still have to remind myself. I am a mother to 3 amazing, beautiful, smart, and loving boys. And I wouldn't have it any other way.