Remember Me....

October has been an emotionally draining month.

So many tragedies have happened.

To Friends and friends of friends.

Moms forced to bury their babies.
People being diagnosed with disease.

Friends Grandparents passing away.

My heart aches.

My heart fills with pain for all my friends hurting.

I am encouraged by the bravery of each of them.

On the flip side it has gotten me to think a lot.

Think how blessed I am. How much I have.

Think about the person I want to be and

the person I want to be remembered as.

Which is nowhere close

to how I would be remembered if I passed

away right at this very second.

I worked a event at Skye last month.

It was the reception after a funeral.

Pictures of this old man

and all his accomplishments

where everywhere.

I could hear friends and family sit at

their tables telling familiar stories of this man.

Happy stories.

That's what I want.

That day I decided I needed to make changes

in my life.

I need to clean up my dirty mouth.

Stop looking to others for approval and acceptance.

Purify my heart was my prayer.

I want a pure heart.
I want love.

I want honesty.

I want happiness.

I want to be fulfilled.

Not by the things of this world.

I want to live simply.

I want to love and be loved.

I want to give the shirt off my back to others.

I want to make the world a better place.

I want to make a difference.

I am ready to let go all my anger, bitterness and hatred

that has harbored my heart for 3 years.

I am ready to let go and let God.

I want to be the most hands on mother.

I want patience, kindness, and love.

I want to be an encouragement to my friends.

I want compassion and wisdom.

I want to be the best WIFE I can be.

I want to prefer him, die to myself, Patience, love, wisdom, forgiveness, gentleness

and most importantly I want to be a child of God again.

I want to love Jesus. I want my light to shine.

I want to make a difference.