Thankful for Throw Up

I was burping the baby last night when all of a sudden like so many times I got puked on. After I cleaned him and myself up I looked at his super cute smile and all I could think was how thankful I was that I have him to throw up on me!! His throw up was a sign to me that he was HERE.I have him.

J.R. got home from work and we went and enjoyed the nice night on our patio and I was apologizing for how the house hasn't been perfectly clean this week. I told him that I was spending less time on the house because its not as important as spending time with our boys. They are only going to be little for so long. I went even further to say that I don't mind the loud and noisy house anymore. A loud house means there is LIFE in it. God forbid anything should ever happen to one of our beautiful sons, we would long for the day to have a loud house. I am THANKFUL for my chaos. Now, with that said..I'm not giving myself a license to be messy and crazy, I'm simply just going to enjoy my kids more and never take one minute for granted.

This talk last night got both of us really chocked up. It even brought tears to J.R.'s eyes.

Then today. Just a few hours after this talk about how special our kids were we got some horrible news. While at church my Grandma told me that our friend Joey was on his way to Mississippi because his 2 1/2 year old grandson had just drowned in a pool and passed away. As I write this I am still in shock. You never think something like this can happen to you or anybody you know and then it does. Life is so short. It is so fragile and precious. We MUST live everyday thankful for what we have and thankful for the people in our lives. Please, if you are reading this, pray for this family. They have suffered a horrible tragedy. No parent should ever have to bury their child.

With all this said, I will forever forever forever be thankful for throw up.

The Picture That Will (I hope) Change My Life!

Have you ever looked at yourself in a picture and thought, "Wow, is that what I REALLY look like?" I found one of those pictures today. (NOT the one below) Infact, we just took it on Saturday at the Childrens Expo. I saw it and couldnt believe how big and unhealthy I have let myself get. I have never ever had a weight problem. Infact I was always teased in Elementry school for being to thin. I remember one boy called me "two back Amy" because I was flat as a rail.

I think it all started when I was pregers with Aiden. I gained 70 pounds! I totally thought I had to eat for 2 and boy did I. I never thought I could ever gain weight so I just ate and ate and ate. Nobody ever mentioned to me that I was gaining to much until after I had had the baby and lost 100% of the weight within a few months (thank you Jesus for breastfeeding lol) After I lost all the weight people would make comments and jokes all the time about how big I got.
Baby #2. I gained 40 pounds and again lost it all within a few months. By the time I lost it all I got pregnant with baby #3! Again I only gained about 35-40 pounds. So now, baby #3 is almost 6 months old and I haven't lost it yet. Infact, I have only lost 10 pounds since he was born. I dont know if it is age, number of babies, or the fact that I couldnt breastfeed him due to his cleft. All I know is I dont want to be an unhealthy mom. I dont want to feel bad, I dont want to eat junk. I want to be a positive role model for my kids. So, with that....I am going public with my weight problem so I have accountability and support. My goal is to lose 30 pounds. I dont know how Im gonna do it yet. I will figure that out tonight. For today, I am going to eat anything I want and go to town in the pantry. HAHA This picture ------------->
was taken my senior year of high school. 10 years ago!!!

Im probably like most busy moms. I eat whenever I get a chance and those chances aren't that often. A bit of and old pb&J here a cookie there. Grab a pop tart on the way out the door. I usually don't eat dinner until all 3 boys are in bed, and I am guilty of not buying the most healthy items. I am a sucker for sugar. Any way I can get it I want it! But this is where I put my foot down and say, I might not ever look like my 18 year old self again..but I can look good and feel confident as a wife, mother, and a WOMAN!

And here is the picture I saw and thought that I needed a change:


And this one was a runner up! LOL




Im gonna post a blog in the next few days of measurements, etc. and just do a weight loss journey blog once a week! (that's my goal, we will see how that pans out!) So, wish me luck. Im lazy and have no self control!!!

To sum it all up

In the past year and a half

(click on the 30 second slideshow link at the end!)

* We had a beautiful son Jonathan Alexander on Jan 23rd, 2009

* Aiden was potty trained at 2 1/2

*3 months later Jax had surgery for a hernia

*We "celebrated" my sisters 1st year in Heaven

* 3 months later we got the HUGE surprise we were expecting again

* 1 month later we packed up to move from Colorado to Arizona

*We "celebrated" my Uncles 1st year in Heaven

* We flew to California to watch J.R.'s mom walk down the aisle. Jax had his first plane ride

* We bought our first house

* J.R. couldn't find a job to save his life

* I worked full time being prego and having a baby and toddler!! UGGGH

* We found out our little surprise was ANOTHER boy

* We found out our little surprise was going to be born different

* We went to countless speciality appointments to find out it was just a cleft lip

* Jax celebrated his 1st birthday

* Very fittingly on April Fools we welcomed Josiah Reid into the world!!

* We went to countless Dr. appointments in 4 months to get him ready for his first surgery.

* Aiden celebrated his 4th birthday

* Reid had his first surgery and we went through our 2nd surgery with our boys in one year!

* Our best friends came to Arizona to visit us

* J.R. and I had some marital problems and split up for a few months

* J.R. moved back in (yay)

* J.R. got a dream job

* My brother and family came to visit from Oregon and we threw my mom an incredible 50th

* I went from working full time to just 1 day a week

* **and today....I took all 3 boys out by myself to run multiple errands!!

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