5 Weeks

Its official...I am 5 weeks.

BEHIND ON BLOGGING!

It has been 5 weeks since I have logged on. 5 weeks since I have caught up on everyones wonderful blogs. 5 weeks. It feels like an eternity. I feel like I have failed so many people who were counting on me to do the Love Dare.

Well, let me clear the air on that. I stopped posting my Love Dare posts for a few reasons. The first and foremost being that I was getting heck from people (just a few, not a ton) that I was putting to much private stuff on display for the world to see. Wait, side note..from where our computer is you can see the bathtub. Thought the boys were playing in it empty (yes they love to do that) but Jax turned on the water (a trickle) and Reid and him are soaked! Gonna go undress them.

Ok, I'm back. You didn't even notice I was gone did you?  So yes, I know that the Love Dare was helping a few women (based on the response I got) but those few negative comments I got were enough to make me wanna shut it down.

Also, I felt to much pressure to just do it to get it done and post about it instead of doing it out of my heart. If I were to skip a day I would feel bad and wouldn't want to make excesses. I still have yet to complete the entire 40 days but have taken what I have learned and applied that to each and every day.

Ok, husband update. I'm not gonna lie...the last 4 weeks I have had some major growing pains and have fallen on my face a few times. I have had to learn some heartbreaking lessons and figure out what is really important. And it is just in the last 48 hours it has clicked. I LOVE my husband. I mean, I love this man. There is nobody else I would rather be with. I want to do everything I can to make my marriage work. I want to grow old with him. I want to be happy with him. I want our kids to throw us a 50th anniversary party. I want to fill his love tank. I want to be a better woman for him.

So now the real work begins. All that I said above is happy and peachy, but we need help. Both of us need counseling for the issues we have. I am so messed up. For real. I have just realized in the past year how many issues I have.

We need to re-connect with the man upstairs. We are so lost.

So, like I said. Now the hard work starts. We are celebrating our new found love for another by going away over night in a few weeks. It will be our first time in 5 years going away overnight and the longest we will have been away for our kids! We are going to stay at a nice hotel...lay by the pool all day...eat a fancy dinner and just enjoy each other! (and no baby 9 months from then bahahah)

I'm sorry for being so distant. I have had a lot of growing pains the past few weeks and just didn't feel up to being around people (around virtual people that is) I apologize.

I'm BACK!