Ramblings

So much on my mind.

In fact so much I couldn't sleep last night.

And when I did sleep, I had dreams about what was on my mind.

I had a surprise visit from my cousin this weekend

It was great seeing her. We have grown up so much its crazy.

I worked hard this weekend.

New job is great.

The shows are great.

The people are kind and great.

I have lots going on the next 2 months.

Thinking I'm pretty much gonna see almost all my closest friends.

Not all my closest friends.

I am so blessed to have so many great friends.

Why do they have to be everywhere but here?

How fun would it be to have all my friends from all over all in one place?

I wonder what that would be like?

I need a girls night. I get to have on in 2 weeks.

I hate the Love Dare.

I don't want to do it anymore.

I don't want to disappoint anyone.

Sometimes I hate the decisions I have made in life.

Hate is a strong word. I hate hate.

I want to be done with Love Dare.

I am 2 days behind and I just don't want to do it anymore

I don't see the point.

I wonder what it will be like if I'm on my own.

I'm scared I'm going to fail.

But then again, I feel like I have already failed.

Pretty much at everything.

Besides being a mom. That I know I do great.

Love Love Love being a mom

My kids are freaking amazing. Im sure all moms say that.

But really, mine are!

I want one more. Even if it were another boy.

I want one more.

It will never happen so I better get over that.

If I don't have anymore I need to get this flippin weight off.

15 pounds to go.

Better stop eating my muffin and drinking my fatty coffee.

Yuck.

Now I feel sick.
I need to find a babysitter tomorrow night.
Its a real special night.
My Grandma is celebrating her 70th birthday.
Dinner. No Kids. Forgot to get sitter.
I'm screwed.

My house is a wreck.

I hate Mondays.

They are my catching up on rest days.

Today is different.

I have to go to work tonight.

Bo Bice is preforming.

Do you remember Bo Bice?
Runner up to Carrie Underwood in American Idol.

My friend showed me a post on CL for 2 car seats.

So excited for the grandparents to have extras so I don't have to always take them out.

Gotta go pick them up.

Then clean.

Then go to work.
Then come home and do everything all over again.