Friday, May 22, 2009

Is this really for me?

Is this really for me? Blogging that is. I'm not the smartest person. I can't get my words in my head down to paper very easily. I'm a horrible speller. (thank God for spell check) I'm not very articulate, and I don't think my life is worth reading about. But, I'm going to give this my best shot. I am however blogging for a few reasons. I think maybe it will help me get out some emotions that I have bottled up. (I guess everyone says how therapeutic it is) and it will keep people updated more so than you can on Facebook or Myspace. There are a lot of changes that are about to take place in our lives coming up and I want a platform to talk about it.

So, I tried to be creative when it came to choosing a blog name. I choose Lanways Ladder for a few reasons. For the most part it was because I was tired of staring at a blank screen hoping something creative would come to mind. I chose the first thing I thought of. I decided to look up a good meaning for "ladder" even though I clearly know what one is. The first page was a dream website and if you dream about a ladder this is what it says:


To dream that you are climbing up a ladder, suggests that you have reached a new level of achievement. It is symbolic of prosperity, hard work and your efforts. Consider also the phrase of "climbing the social ladder" in which you have achieved a promotion, a higher status, more power, or an important goal. Alternatively, it may indicate meditation and prayer. You are setting forth on a spiritual path and higher awareness. Each rung of the ladder is indicative of a stage in your spiritual awareness. You may also be looking things from a different perspective.

Im not big into dreams and meanings and all that stuff, but this totally fit. So, Lanways Ladder it was!! Then I was asked for a title or something like that when I signed up. Again, not being very creative I thought of my favorite Bible verse, "Count it all joy when you fall into various trails knowing the testing of your faith produces patience" James 1:2-3 As many many of you know myself and my husband have gone through some MAJOR trials the entire 5 1/2 years we have been married. We have literally been through it all. (maybe one day I will be brave enough to share about all that) So, in my marriage I have to remember to count it all joy. Now I have 2 beautiful sons. There are so many days when I feel like I cant make it another minute. Then I remember to "count it all joy" every min. Every second. Every poopy diaper and every time I have been thrown up on. Every time I have to buy my kids new shoes when I haven't gotten a new pair in forever and especially every time my soon to be 3 year old strokes my face and says, "I love you so much mommy"

So, here's to my first blog. Who knows if anyone will read it or not, and that is ok. I already feel better and more accomplished just by posting this first one. Now if only I can figure out how to make it all cute like Debrans or Christines!!!!